Saturday, April 17, 2010
Im started to lilke this girl.In fact,i donno whether is those kinda like wanna be great frens or just close frens is satisfying for me.Or is it-Girl like GIrl.Les?i dont wanna be a les.I mean theres no harm but i donno why.Shes really v.cute.Shes callled carnation.at ffirst,i didnt noe that was her name.I thought the name was stupid.But when i finally met her in sch,evything just seemed to changed.I knew her through a fren of mine.And when i saw her,i went up to her fac and asked her for her number.It was just like "like at first sight".please dont misunderstnad me.Im not a les.But,im not sure whether the next sentence denies it."whenever i see her or whenever i see her smile,i feel extremely happy.Not knowing whether to say,my heart just melts.Well,ever since this thing started,i have been telling my fren everything about this or her.And i talk very loud so almost the whole class noes about it.frens that are not in the same class or not close to me,you dont noe how crazy i am and the actions i do or how i react whenever i see her.For example,that day,she wrote back a letter to me and i was happy for the whole day.Not even the person that sits beside me can make me angey or sad.I really like her alot.but she doesnt reall ytalk to me.In her blog,it was clearly stated that when this happens,its usually cause she doesnt like a person or shes shy.After seeing that,i really wonder.What if she finds me irritating?I just wouldnt noe how to react to it.But one thing that makes me a little positive about this is that she also stated its usaally of the usually that shes shy.Shes the shy and only talk to other ppl when she noes others well.I have always been the one initiating to sms her.And i donno if she finds me irritating cause of that.Hope she doesnt.Well,she initiated smsing to me twice and i was really happy.I dont noe how to express those happiness.If im sad or angry,i just need her to smile at me or talk to me.But i only know her for like 2 weeks and that kinda talk im referring to is the normal talk i do to my goodfrens or bestfrens.Only 2 weeks of knowing her.Its impossible.But when time passes by,i hope it happens.And when it happens,i will be ultra happy.Done saying.
what we could have been, 5:48 AM.
