Today,i just saw carnation in the canteen.well,as usual always me doign the hi-ing and stuffs the initiative stuffs.shes stil lthe same-as shy or maybe as rude as to ignore people.i feel heart-brokened.KLeh.I need to go very close to look at her closely.thats very important and i need to do it fast.For some reasons.I wrote a letter to her last night and i plan to give it to my messenger or our messenger to pass it to her.She keeps hanging out wif this girl a talll tall one and if im not wrong they are from different class but yet so damn freaking close.i see them together almost everytime i spot her.HMMM.can someone help me or telll me how to make carnation be less hostile to me or less idoitic to me???????????Im really getting upset.Its like i try so hard to do all the initiative stuffs and shes still giving me the cold attitude.But i dont blame her.Maybe cause she looks rather fierce and im those kinda kekekeek type.Ignorant i mean.Help me please someeone.Her birthdaes 1st of may and thats a holiday.pretty jealous but its so coincidence that it falls on the celebration of labour day.Arghh.i want to give her a birthday present but i donno what she likes.
what we could have been, 4:49 AM.