Friday, May 28, 2010
ARGGHH.I FUCKING HELL HATE MEET THE PARENTS SESSION.EVERY OF THEM.NOW MY PARENTS SO DAMN ANGRY WITH ME.ME AND MY DAD ARE LYK TOTAL STRANGERS.MY MUMS OK WITH ME DISAPPOINTED.I WOULD RATHER SHE SCOLD ME MAN.AT LEAST I NOE THAT SHES NORMAL THEN.I CRIED.CRIED IN FRONT OF DRAGONS FACE.NOT THE BIG CRY BUT FACE WAS RED TEARS AME DOWN.NOT BCAUSE MY MUM SCOLDED ME.BECAUSE I FELT THAT I WAS USELESS AND NOT A GD DAUGHTER.SO SAD COULDNT GO TO CHERYLLS HOUSE TODAY AND I MISSED THE FUN.THEY POSTED PICS ON FACEBOOK MAKE ME SO JEALOUS.SOMEMORE NEXT TUESDAY I THINK GOT CLASS OUTING.I THINK I WONT BE ABLE TO GO EITHER.FUCK LA.
what we could have been, 7:56 AM.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
STEPH CAME MY HOUSE YESTYERDAY AFTER SCHOOL.OBVIOUSLY,MY PARENTS DIDNT KNOW.SO IT WAS KINDA LIKE A ILLEGAL SNEAK IN AND WE WERE BOTH LIKE QUITE SCARED.SHE SAID Y HOUSE WAS CREEPY AND SCARY CAUSE OF THE WHITENESS AND EMPTYNESS,I THINK CAUSE TOO NEAT FOR HER LIAO.AND THEN AFTER EATING,WE WENT TO THE NEARBY PLAYGROUND AND TOKE LOTS OF PICTURES.:DYESTERDAY WAS SO AWESOME.TODAYS MY DOOM DAY,MEET THE PARENTS AND I HAVEN TELL THEM ABOUT MY REPORT BOOK YET.
what we could have been, 7:37 PM.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
ARGHH.HE IS IRRITATING.NOW HAVING MATHSW IN COM LAB.EVERYONE IS USING COM AND HES THE ONLY BODO HOW DOESNT KNOW THAT.MAYBE CAUSE HE IS NOT A YOUNGSTER?HAHARHX.ANOTHER MATTER.CARNATIION WHEN TOWUXI,CHINA.AND SHES GONNA GO FOR A MONTH AND SHE DIDNT TELL ME.DOESNT SHE KNOW THAT BESIDES ONLY WHOEVER SHE THINKS NOE HER AND CARE ABHOUT HER,THERE ARE STILL MANY OTHER PPL WHO CARE ABOUT HER IN THIS WORLD.MORE THAN MANY OTHER PPLS SO CALLED CARE. I WONDER HOW SHE IS DOING IN CHINA??WONDER IF SHE FEELS COLD OR FEEL GUILTY ABOUT MAKING ME WAIT FOR SO LONG JUST FOR A REPLY.AND SHE HASNT WRITTEN ME BACK THE LETTER AND SHE WENT TO CHINA AND SHES GOING FOR A MONTH.THAT WOULD MEAN I WILL NEED TO WAIT FOR 1 MONTH PLUS 2 WEEKS FOR A LETTER IF THAT IS THE CASE.
CURRENTLY,IM EMO.OR MAYBE FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS TOO.I WOULD CRY FOR HER.I SOUND WEIRD.SNORESSSS.
CURRENTLY,IM EMO.OR MAYBE FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS TOO.I WOULD CRY FOR HER.I SOUND WEIRD.SNORESSSS.
what we could have been, 5:44 PM.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
FINALLY JUBILATE IS OVER!!!I WAS SO DAMN FREAKING SCARED WHEN I HEARD THE AUDIENCE COMIN IN.I JUST HAD TO THINKK OF CARNATION AND THE PPL THAT GAVE ME FLOWERS.I HATE BEING THE 1ST PERFORME=ANCE.YOUR BUTT HAVE TO BE THERE FOR 15-20MIN AND YOU CANT MOVE.ANYWAYS,THANKS TO THE PEEPS WHO GAVE WO FLOWERS.XENIA,NICOLE,TERESA,NATALIE,GEORGI,SIYING,CARNATION!!!****,ALL MY SENIORS AND THOSE OTHERS CANT RMEMBER.
what we could have been, 9:14 PM.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
TODAY ,DURING RECESS WA S THE VERY FIRST TIME THAT CARNATION ACTUALLY TOOK THE INIATIVE TO SAY HI TO ME!!!!!WELL ,ALTHOUGH NOT REALLY A HI BUT A WAVE IS COUNTED AS A SILENT HI SO EQUALS TO A HIIIII!!!AT LEAST BETTA THAN NOTHING.AND THE VERY FIRST TIME I WASNT PAISEH IN FRONT OF HER I JUST DONT NOE Y.THE NONE PAISEHNESS JUST CAME:DSHES A ONE CUTIE PIE!!!!
what we could have been, 11:06 PM.
JUSTHAD NAFPA TODAY.IT WAS SO DAMN TIRING.ACTUALLY I WAS LIKE AT THE MIDDLE OF THE CLASS AROUND THERE AND THERE WQAS STILL SO MANY PPL BEHIND ME.HOW I KNOW FOR THE LAST ROUNED I WALKED LIKE 90% OF IT.AND I CAME IN LAST IM CLASS.MINGLI IS SO DAMN FREAKING IRRITATING !!!CANT BELIEVE SHES SITTING BESIDE ME FOR ALMOST EVERYDAY AND I SEE HER ANNOYING FACE WHICH PISSES ME OFF ALL THE TIME.JUST LIFTED UP HER SKIRT TODAY AND XXX TEACHER SCOLDED ME TODAY.LIKE SCREAMED AT MR WHICH MADE MY FUCKING PAISEH.IRRITATING FREAK.
IVE GOT BAND CAMP TODAY.AND IM IN XXX AND XXXX GROUP AND THEY ARE LIKE GOOD FRENS AND THEY ARE THE ONLY PPL I KNOW.SO JUST HAVE TO STICK WITH THEM AND I SCARED I WILL FEEL LEFT OUT.ARRGGGH.ITS UNFAIR ,WHY ARENT IM IN THE SAME GROUP AS STEPHANIE???WALAO THEN TOTALLY WE'LL BOTH BE DAMN FREAKING EXCITED.HMM,BUT STEPH IS EVEN WORSE.SHES IN A GROUP THAT SHE DOESNT KNOW ANY1 EXCEPT FOR ONE-STILL NOT CLOSE TO HER.WOOOPS.SADNESS.BROGHT CARDS SPECIALLY FOR CAMP TODAY TO PALY TAIDI AND SPEED AND WHATSOEVA.HAHAHA.IM NOT SURE WHETHER IM TRUELY EXCITED FOR IT.HALF EXCITED AND HALF RELUCTANT:[CURRENTLY HAVING HOME ECONS NOW AND THE TEACHER CANT SEE ME.LOL.SHES KINDA CUTE OR SILLY.I BET THE WHOLE CLASS IS DOING ILLEGAL STUFFS ON COM OTHER THAN STUPID MINGLI-FUNNY WOMEN.NEXT WEEK IS JUBILATE AND I REALLLY HOPE I'LL BE ABLE TO PLAY.THERES TWO SONGS ALL DAMN FUCKING NICE BUT I CAN ONLY PLAY ONE AND NOT REALLY PERF FOR EVERYTHING AND THE OTHER SONG PLAY-MAYBE AT ALL I CAN EVEN SAY THAT.ARGGGHS.I REALLY WANT TO WEAR MY BAND UNI CAUSE ITS SO NICE AND I LOVE IT TTM JUST THAT ITS A LITTLE BIG FOR ME.EVER SINCE THE INCIDENT STARTING OF THIS YEAR I WAS KIKED OUT FROM PLAYING IN THE CCA FAIR,I REALLY DREAD IT TO HAPPEN AGAIN.I HOPE MISS XXXX WILL GIVE ME A CHANCE AND I HOPE THAT IW ILL IMPROVE MY PLAYING SKILLS.
IVE GOT BAND CAMP TODAY.AND IM IN XXX AND XXXX GROUP AND THEY ARE LIKE GOOD FRENS AND THEY ARE THE ONLY PPL I KNOW.SO JUST HAVE TO STICK WITH THEM AND I SCARED I WILL FEEL LEFT OUT.ARRGGGH.ITS UNFAIR ,WHY ARENT IM IN THE SAME GROUP AS STEPHANIE???WALAO THEN TOTALLY WE'LL BOTH BE DAMN FREAKING EXCITED.HMM,BUT STEPH IS EVEN WORSE.SHES IN A GROUP THAT SHE DOESNT KNOW ANY1 EXCEPT FOR ONE-STILL NOT CLOSE TO HER.WOOOPS.SADNESS.BROGHT CARDS SPECIALLY FOR CAMP TODAY TO PALY TAIDI AND SPEED AND WHATSOEVA.HAHAHA.IM NOT SURE WHETHER IM TRUELY EXCITED FOR IT.HALF EXCITED AND HALF RELUCTANT:[CURRENTLY HAVING HOME ECONS NOW AND THE TEACHER CANT SEE ME.LOL.SHES KINDA CUTE OR SILLY.I BET THE WHOLE CLASS IS DOING ILLEGAL STUFFS ON COM OTHER THAN STUPID MINGLI-FUNNY WOMEN.NEXT WEEK IS JUBILATE AND I REALLLY HOPE I'LL BE ABLE TO PLAY.THERES TWO SONGS ALL DAMN FUCKING NICE BUT I CAN ONLY PLAY ONE AND NOT REALLY PERF FOR EVERYTHING AND THE OTHER SONG PLAY-MAYBE AT ALL I CAN EVEN SAY THAT.ARGGGHS.I REALLY WANT TO WEAR MY BAND UNI CAUSE ITS SO NICE AND I LOVE IT TTM JUST THAT ITS A LITTLE BIG FOR ME.EVER SINCE THE INCIDENT STARTING OF THIS YEAR I WAS KIKED OUT FROM PLAYING IN THE CCA FAIR,I REALLY DREAD IT TO HAPPEN AGAIN.I HOPE MISS XXXX WILL GIVE ME A CHANCE AND I HOPE THAT IW ILL IMPROVE MY PLAYING SKILLS.
what we could have been, 10:53 PM.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
YESTERDAY JUST HAD NAPFA.IT WAS SO TIRING.AND I FAILED LIKE 3????IN LIKE 6 ITEMS??I NEVER FAILED SO MANY IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE AT MOST ONLY 1.AND FOR ALL I DID AROUND 5 AND MORE TIMES AND BLOODY HELL I SAW THE PASSING MARK WRONGLY.IM A JUST PASS PERSON CAN LIAO.PEEPS KNOW ME BEST.WHICH MEANS I ACTUALLY DON’T NID TO DO SO MANY TIMES AND RETAKE SO MANY FCUKING TIMES.AND THE ASSHOLE TEACHER XXX TOLD THE WHOLE SECOND BATCH THE HOPE CLASSES THE ONES AFTER US.SO DAMN FUCKNIG IDOITIC.I WANTED TO SLAP HIM.AND NOW MA WHOLE BODY IS ACHING EVEN IF I WALK DOWN OR UP THE STAIRS I FEEL PAIN.PAIN.PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GOING TO FAIL FOR MAATHS TEST TMR.INSTEAD OF STUDYING IM BLOGGING.LOL.
what we could have been, 6:17 AM.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
I HAVENT DONE THE E LEARNING LIT HOMEWORK YET AND I ONLY BOTHERED TO CHECK IT LIKE A SECOND AGO?BUT IDIDNT BRING HOME MY VILLAGE BY THE SEA BOOK!!!!WANQING ALSO LEH HOWWWS???AIYA IM DAMN FUCKING SCARED LA CAUSE MISS NGS LIKE QUITE FIERCE AND SHE THREATENS TO THROW PPL OUT OF THE BUILDING AND SHE ALWAYS PUNISH PEEPS BY ASKING THEM TO COPY AND IT CAN BE LIKE THE WHOLE PASSAGE AND THEN DURING LIT ON FRI SOME PPL DIDNT BRING THEIR BOOK SHE PUNISH THEM TO COPY AGAIN.ARGHHHH.ITS FUCKING IRRITATING.AND NNEXT WEEK GOT A WHOLE LOT OF FRIGGIN STRESSFUL AND MURDEROUS TESTS MAN.DIEDIEDIE LIKE FRIGGGG!!!!!!!!!
AND THEN I DONNO WHAT TO LEARN FOR TRANSPOT AND COMMUNICATION FOR GEOG CAUSE ITS LIKE SOME IS COMMON SENSE AND SOME IS I DDOONNO WHAT THE FUCK THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT.ERR,DUDES HELP ME HUH WILL YOU AND STOP GIVING ME SO MUH PRESSURE ALREADY.
IM SUFFOCATING!!!!!
AND THEN I DONNO WHAT TO LEARN FOR TRANSPOT AND COMMUNICATION FOR GEOG CAUSE ITS LIKE SOME IS COMMON SENSE AND SOME IS I DDOONNO WHAT THE FUCK THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT.ERR,DUDES HELP ME HUH WILL YOU AND STOP GIVING ME SO MUH PRESSURE ALREADY.
IM SUFFOCATING!!!!!
what we could have been, 4:27 AM.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
YAYAYA.IM SO HAPPY.TODAY CANCELLED TUITION BECAUSE ITS MOTHERS DAY.ANYWAYS I DIDNT DO HOMEWORK AND TEACHER ASKED ME TO BRING MY ENG AND HISTORY FILE WHICH A DAYDREAMER IN CLASS LYK ME DIDNT FILE IN NOT A SINGLE THING FOR 2TERMS ALREADY.LOL.I WONDERED IF SHE NOES THAT TODAY IM NOT GOING FOR TUITION CASUE I SMSED HERBUT SHE DIDNT REPLY ME.
I FEEL GUILTY,BAD.
SHOULD I APOLOGISE TO THE GIRL THAT I DONT LIKE????????IM NOT THOSE KINDA THAT APOLOGISE EASILY BUT THEN I THINK IM REALLY BAD TO HHER.LIKE THE THINGS THAT I DO TO HER IS LIKE ALL PERSONAL ATTACK ON HER APPEARANCE AND HER NATUURAL THINGY.SHES NATURALLY XXX.SO I MADE USE OF THAT WHENEVER I MAKE FUN OF HER.BUT ON FRIDAY,ITWAS MORE SERIOUS.I DONNO WHY BUT I FELT EXTREMELY GUITLY.AFTER I SAID THAT SHE LOOKED AT ME AND I COULD SENSE THAT SHE WAS HURT.WEELL,IF I WERE HER,ITS LIKE A ARROW STABBING IN MY HEART.AND AFTER THAT,I DDIDNT FEEL BAD AT ALL.NOT ONLY UNTILLL MY FRENS TOLD ME AND NOT ONLY UNTILL NOW.MAYBE TMR WHEN I SEE HER DURING RECESS AGAIN I'LL HAVE A 1 TO1 TALK WIF HER AND MAYBE CLEAR THE MISUNDERSTANDINGS AND MAYBE SAY A WORD OF SORRY TO HER.
DEDICATED TO:LOH WENXIN.
I FEEL GUILTY,BAD.
SHOULD I APOLOGISE TO THE GIRL THAT I DONT LIKE????????IM NOT THOSE KINDA THAT APOLOGISE EASILY BUT THEN I THINK IM REALLY BAD TO HHER.LIKE THE THINGS THAT I DO TO HER IS LIKE ALL PERSONAL ATTACK ON HER APPEARANCE AND HER NATUURAL THINGY.SHES NATURALLY XXX.SO I MADE USE OF THAT WHENEVER I MAKE FUN OF HER.BUT ON FRIDAY,ITWAS MORE SERIOUS.I DONNO WHY BUT I FELT EXTREMELY GUITLY.AFTER I SAID THAT SHE LOOKED AT ME AND I COULD SENSE THAT SHE WAS HURT.WEELL,IF I WERE HER,ITS LIKE A ARROW STABBING IN MY HEART.AND AFTER THAT,I DDIDNT FEEL BAD AT ALL.NOT ONLY UNTILLL MY FRENS TOLD ME AND NOT ONLY UNTILL NOW.MAYBE TMR WHEN I SEE HER DURING RECESS AGAIN I'LL HAVE A 1 TO1 TALK WIF HER AND MAYBE CLEAR THE MISUNDERSTANDINGS AND MAYBE SAY A WORD OF SORRY TO HER.
DEDICATED TO:LOH WENXIN.
what we could have been, 11:47 PM.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
I BOUGHT ANOTHER OF MY BELONGING WHICH IS MY FAVOURITE FROG AND GAVE IT TO CARNATION TODAY.I WENT ALL THE WAY TO ORCHARD TO BUY IT FOR HER.OR MAYBE NOT SPECIALLY.SINCE MY FWENS AND I WANTED TOGO THERE TOO SO SUNBIAN BUY.I DONT NOE WHAT SHE LIKES.SERIOUSLY AND I LIKE SO CALLED DONT REMEMBER HOW SHE SOUNDS LIKE.UNBELIEVABLE HUH.CAUSE SHE DOESNT REALLY TALK TO ME OLY THROUGH SMSES.HMMM,SHE SAYS SHE FEELS PS WHENVER SHE SEES ME IN RL AND TOTALLY HAVE NO IDEA TO TALK ABOUT.INITIALLY I WRAPPED THE FROG TWICE WITH BEAUTIFUL DECENT GIFT WRAPPERS BUT THEN I THINK TOO UGLY SO I TORE IT OUT AND THEN AFTER THAT I REALISE I HAD NO MORE GIFT WRAPPING PAPER SO I HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO SLOT IT IN A BIGBIG ENVELOPE AND IT EVEN GOT MY PARENTS COMAPNYS STICKER THERE.=='DIAOS.I GAVE THE PRESENT TO HER IN THE CANTEEN AND I WANTED LIKE TO WAIT UNTIL SHE WAS ALONE THEN GIVE IT TO HER BUT THEN SHE SEEMS TO BE NEVER ALONE.=='SAD.SHE SEEMS TO BE WITH VERA ALL THE TIME ,HER GUIDES FWEN AND THAT SOMEBODY LIKE A"GIRL"I DONT LIKE.ARGHHHS.!!!!!UNTILL SHE WAS GOING TO LEAVE THE CANTEEN TO GO BACK TO CLASS THEN I CHASED AFTER HER LIKE FOR A SHORT DISTANCE IN THE CANTEEN AND TAPPED HER SHOULDERS AND GAVE HER THE ENVELOPE.ALMOST 8/10 PEEPS SAY THAT THE ENVELOPE LOOKED LIKE IT CONTAINED MONEY.LOL.YA I KNOW IN SHOWS WHEN THE KIDNAPPER DEMANDS FOR RANSOM THE PERSON WILL BRING THE MONEY IN A ENVELOPE WHICH LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE THIS.I GAVE HER THE PRESENT AND SHE LOOKED AT ME AND SAID THANK YOU WHILE SMILING!!!!WAHHHH.MY HEART MELT MAN.I KNOW I SOUND LES.AND PEEPS ,IM NOT A LES.IM JUST MAYBE HOMO????I STILL LIKE GUYS OKKAYYS.
what we could have been, 11:02 PM.
GOT BACK MY LITERATURE VILLAGE BY THE SEA TEST.I FUCKING HELL FAILED.WELL,I THINK I GOT THE LOWEST IN CLASS WHICH IS 7/20.AND READERS WHO ARE READING THIS POST,PLEASE DO NOT GO AROUND TELLING EVERY BODY MY DUMB AND STUPID RESULTS.CAUSE ONLY A RETARD LIKE ME THEN IS CAPABLE TO GET THIS KINDA RESULTS.I DONNO HOW TO GO AROUND TELLING MY MOTHER ABOUT IT MAN,OR EVEN MY DAD.EVEN IF I DONT TELL THEM I WILL HAVE TO TELL THEM SOONER OR LATER.TWO MORE WEEKS TILL THE END OF TERM AND TILL PPR WILL COME BACK AND I WILL HAVE TO SHOW THEM.ONLY TWO MORE WEEKS TO ENJOY.LOL.I JUST FIND IT UNBELIEVABLE.HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT LAST TERM I GOT 5AS AND THIS TERM I GOT NOT EVEN A SINGLE A.NOT EVEN MY MOST CONFIDENT STUB,CHINESE.IS IT BECAUSE THAT THE 1ST TERM ITS ALWAYS EASIER???OR CAUSE I SUDDENLY BECAME DUMBER.
what we could have been, 10:53 PM.
JUST FINISHED E-LEARNING.-HAPPY.NEXT WEEK GOT SO MANY TEST TINGXIE GEOG MATHS AND ENG CANT RMBER.-WORRIED,SAD,IRRITATED,STRESSED UP.TODAYS HOL TO ME OR US STUDENTS-HAPPY.RECIEVED THE FINE THAT I WAS CAUGHT DRINKING IN MRT STATION.A 30DOLLARS FINE.-UPSET.FEEL DUMB.DONT WANNA PAY FOR IT MYSELF.BUT HAVE TO.
SO OVERALL,
IM NOT HAPPY,NOT SAD,JUST NORMAL.
0% SAD,0%HAPPY.1000%NORMAL.
WHAT A NICE WAY TO CALCULATE MY SADNESS OR HAPPINESS.
:D;D;D;D'D'D'D:D
SO OVERALL,
IM NOT HAPPY,NOT SAD,JUST NORMAL.
0% SAD,0%HAPPY.1000%NORMAL.
WHAT A NICE WAY TO CALCULATE MY SADNESS OR HAPPINESS.
:D;D;D;D'D'D'D:D
what we could have been, 12:21 AM.
